Dreamburgh

Well I wanted to sleep with her
more than anything
not because she was beautiful
-not impressive but
more than I deserved-
not because I liked her
I kinda like everybody now
-except if they like me but
it doesn't happen much-
I wanted to sleep with her
not because of sex
-no objections here-
it was because of 
being aware of the monsters
whom used to spy her
from outside the window
sometimes inside the closet
or under the bed
or from inside her
well there were this monsters
crawling inside me
but they were so pathetic
they got scared as soon as
they reached the surface
and saw her monsters
and I still feel them 
biting and roaring inside
too frightened to sleep
so I wanted to be
closer to her monsters
just for the sake of
being close to something
and one day I asked
'why don't you run away?'
and she answered
'at least someone will love me'
and some after that
we fell into the dream
in which we were in NY
while the world was closing down
and we walked by the skycrappers
waiting for them to fall
and it was one of these dreams
do you know? 
the good old dreams
which never stop
and the world never got to the end
and we were happy
and at a certain point 
some idiot woke up
and the dream bursted
and the pieces fell over her
and I tried to pick'em up
while picking her up
and she stopped me
'it was only for the dream'
and I
well I
I'm still here
waiting for the dream to
be built up again
that's all I can do now
so if you reach here
please let me know
you know it's you
it has always been you
and I'm tired of missing you
even awake
Fuck.